There’s beauty in the upside. Despite knowing this, I chase the sensation of gloom.
I used to strongly believe in my originality. Then I made enough mistakes to realize that my answers can be just as threatening as the problem.
as the clock approaches midnight, so too does my threat level. it’s been a quick ascent to the month of march. it’s naturally a month where the cold, beaten earth summons the courage for one more year. this habit of renewal reflects a thoughtful lesson. if nature has the will to grow from it’s frozenContinue reading “a calendar of todays and tomorrows”
i haven’t intentionally worn white for well over half a year, but i wore it tonight. there’s a type of mystification around this occurrence of brightness, since i don’t yet understand what it means. but it feels like some decisive point in a battle. i’ve been looking forward to, and dreading, writing this tonight. ofContinue reading “an imaginary, unrecorded story”
fearing for your life isn’t that common in a college environment or an average workplace. worries about performance results and multiple choice bubbles are a more likely scenario. that is, if you aren’t linked to misguided anxiety. with anxiety, it’s difficult to level the mind into an accepting state. dread floods receptors to scream bloodyContinue reading “a dimension of mayhem”
to slowly fall back into the depths of a hazy slog is a miraculously terrifying experience. it’s when all the energy taken for granted starts to dissolve like spray coming out of a nozzle. it starts strong, then slowly loses steam and succumbs to gravity, a force greater than its own. at the end, there’sContinue reading “a carefully executed crumble”